The Enemy Through your life you go through telling to yourself that you will never be like the enemy that you despise with all your heart You do everything that you can to not be like him, to protect yourself from such pain and misery In the end, you realized what you have done You've lost your dreams and lost your friends Now there is no hope You knew that they were there for you but you denied it and kept on pushing them away Now it's too late, you're just like him now, No matter how hard you tried not to be You go to him for understanding but just how you pushed your friends away He pushes you in the same direction Enclosed in loneliness and with no hope you wish you have never lived to be like him As much as you try to deny it Deep inside it wasn't his fault for the pain or was it anyones No matter who you try to blame or what you try to think It's always and forever will be your fault |
Choices |
Everyday, you face your problems that makes you want to break down and cry but who can you turn to tell what's on your mind? You have friends, the thought in your head is that they don't care, you tell them anyways what good does it do? they continue to neglect you and use you as their last resort for them so say that they care is a slap in the face everyone said they care but they never show it you seek for comfort and all that you are left with is the loneliness that surrounds you and the pain in your heart hurts you more the negative thoughts in your head, leave you confused about those around you Now you close your eyes and say to yourself that everything will get better Your friends will change and they will show you sympathy and not resentment On and on your continue to think this way but you know that it's a total lie, the tears come and you realize that that is the way how your life is supposed to be to be alone and to stay weak and be the pathetic person that you were raised to become |
Defeat. |
The stable ground that you walk on is now rubble, you fall with defeat Your world has been torn apart your hope and success has been taken away, you're left with nothing now except for him He is the flame that leads your way He is the one that you thought, chould never exist or enter your life At your time of defeat, he comes to protect you from the fall The reality that is your life is the pain insides yu He is your only joy that keeps you alive The dispare tries to over come your joy Just a simple word r smile from him takes you to another world You take a deep breath and think things through Your eyes fills with tears and you wonder why? Is it because of the joy he makes you feel or is it because of the defeat that you are in now?? At your moment of total weakness the unexpected happens and there's nothing you can do about it It's not right It wasn't suppose to be this way It wasn't suppose to happen but no matter what you think You know tt he is the one keeping you alive all this time and you live him with all your heart If you lose him, you know you won't survive the pain that reality gives to you Dedicated to my One and Only Love, Will |
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written 08/08/02 Remember... I sit, staring into space I remember you Tears form in my eyes I remember us I hold my breath to calm myself I remember happiness I clench my hands into tight fists I remember the things you told me I bite my lip, the pain will surpress my tears I remember the things we did I take a deep breath I remember what you said to me that day A tear falls down my cheek I remember what happened I slowly start to cry I remember how much you hurt me I cry It's been a year and I still remember. |